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jiù gǎn jué méi yǒu zhè gè jiā
感觉没有这个
jiù shì yī gè rén zài huó zhe
就是一个活着
yī gè rén zài wài miàn dài zhe
一个外面
le dōu méi rén zhī dào
知道
jiù zhè zhǒng
这种
shì fǒu céng yīn fù mǔ de mǒu xiē yán xíng ér shòu dào shāng hài
是否父母某些言行受到伤害
dà gài jiù shì shàng dà xué de shí hòu
大概就是大学时候
bǐ jiào tān wán
比较贪玩
rán hòu fù mǔ jiù shuō
然后父母
zhè bèi zi méi shén me chū xī le
这辈子没什么出息
shén me dōu bù huì
什么不会
rán hòu kàn bù qǐ cháo fěng
然后看不起 嘲讽
zài xué xiào lǐ miàn yīn wèi biǎo xiàn bù hǎo
学校里面因为表现不好
bèi lǎo shī pī píng
老师批评
rán hòu bà bà shuō
然后爸爸
zǎo zhī dào shì zhè yàng de yī gè rén
知道这样一个
hái bù rú bù yào shēng xià zhè gè ér zi
不如不要这个儿子
hái bù rú zài shēng yī gè zài yǎng yī gè
不如再生一个 一个
shuō shēng le zhēn de shì tǐng méi yòng de
 真的没用
jì dé zài dà xué de shí hòu
记得大学时候
jiù zì jǐ duì zì jǐ de yào qiú hái shì tǐng gāo de
自己自己要求还是
dàn shì ne zuò chū yī xiē chéng jī yǐ hòu
但是 做出一些成绩以后
méi yǒu dé dào tā men de rèn kě
没有得到他们认可
rán hòu jiù jué dé
然后觉得
jiù zhè yàng ba
这样
jiù àn zhào kuài huó de nà zhǒng fāng shì qù guò
按照快活那种方式去过
jué dé hěn qí guài
觉得奇怪
zhī qián qǔ dé le xiāng yīng de chéng jī de shí hòu
之前取得相应成绩时候
méi yǒu dé dào tā men de rèn kě
没有得到他们认可
dàn méi yǒu zuò zhè xiē shì qíng de shí hòu
没有这些事情时候
fǎn ér chū lái zhǐ zé
反而出来指责
hòu lái yī diǎn jiù gēn shuō dào zhè gè shì
后来一点这个
jiù shuō de shì
shì wèi le biān cè a
为了鞭策
wèi shén me
oh my god为什么
jiù shì zhè yàng
就是这样
bèi lǎo shī qǐng le jiā zhǎng
老师家长
rán hòu fù mǔ huí qù yǐ hòu
然后父母回去以后
jiù hěn hěn de yòng de jiā lǐ de yī xiē jiā fǎ chōu le
狠狠家里一些家法
gù yì chuān le liǎng tiáo hòu kù zi
故意穿两条裤子
yīn wèi zhī dào yào
因为知道
jié guǒ hái shì hěn wú qíng de
结果还是无情
ràng kù zi tuō diào
裤子脱掉
rán hòu hǎo hǎo de chōu le yī dùn
然后好好一顿
fù mǔ dāng shí hěn ma
父母当时
shǒu jī shuāi le
手机
diàn nǎo shén me de dōu shuāi le
电脑什么
shuō zhè yī bèi zi dōu bù huì chéng cái
一辈子不会成才
zhè yī bèi zi xià yī bèi zi
一辈子 一辈子
wú lùn duō jiǔ duō jiǔ duō jiǔ dōu bù huì chéng cái
无论多久多久多久不会成才
zhè yàng zi xià qù
样子下去
kěn dìng huì zuò láo
肯定坐牢
dāng shí shuō zhè huà
当时
gǎn jué duì lái shuō de huà
感觉来说的话
gǎn jué hǎo xiàng fǒu dìng le de yī qiè
感觉好像否定一切
gǎn jué jiù yī wú suǒ yǒu
感觉一无所有
gǎn jué jiù xiàng tā men fàng qì le zhè gè rén yī yàng
感觉他们放弃这个一样
qí shí jīng lì guò xiào yuán bào lì
其实经历校园暴力
jiào le jiā zhǎng yǐ hòu ba
家长以后
tā men dì yī shí jiān bù shì bǎo hù
他们第一时间不是保护
tā men shì xiān zhǐ zé le yī dùn
他们指责一顿
rán hòu zài gēn lǎo shī shuō huà de
然后老师说话
shuō zěn me yòu rě shì le
怎么惹事
zěn me zěn me yàng de
怎么怎么样
dāng shí bèi qī fù le
当时欺负
dāng shí shàng chū yī nà me xiǎo de gè tóu
当时初一 那么个头
xiǎng xiǎng nà zhǒng gǎn jué
想想那种感觉
xiǎng xiǎng nà zhǒng bèi pāo qì de gǎn jué
想想那种抛弃感觉
xiǎng xiǎng
想想
qí shí duì dāng shí zào chéng de shāng hài tǐng de
其实当时造成伤害
dāng shí fù mǔ méi yǒu gěi shén me tài de bāng zhù
当时父母没有什么帮助
shì zì jǐ zhǎo rén
自己
jīng cháng qī fù de nà xiē rén gěi le yī dùn
经常欺负那些一顿
rán hòu cái hǎo de
然后
hòu lái kāi shǐ hùn le
后来开始
suǒ yǐ shuō zào chéng xiàn zài xué xí bù hǎo
所以造成现在学习不好
běn rén jiù shì yǒu yì yù zhèng de
本人就是抑郁症
tā men jiù shì huì shuō yī xiē huà
他们就是一些
ràng jué dé zì jǐ jiù shì tā men de yī gè lèi zhuì
觉得自己就是他们一个累赘
shuō kàn měi gè yuè zhì bìng
 每个治病
de yī yào fèi dōu nà me guì
医药费那么
hái yào yī yuàn fù chá
还要医院复查
shí bā suì jiù bù guǎn le
十八岁不管
děng mǎn shí bā suì
十八岁
zì jǐ chū qù xiǎng zěn me yàng jiù zěn me yàng
自己出去怎么样怎么样
zǎo diǎn jià chū qù suàn le
早点嫁出去算了
dà gài jiù shì
大概就是
jiù zǎo liàn ma
早恋
jiù shuō jiǎn diǎn
检点
dāng shí hái shì chū zhōng duì
当时还是初中 
jiù gǎn jué zì jǐ bèi tǒng le yī dāo
感觉自己一刀
zhēn de xīn hěn tòng
真的 
zhēn de hěn tòng
真的
dāng shí shì zài shàng xué de guò chéng zhōng
当时上学过程
jiù shì hěn nán guò dàn hái shì shàng xué le
就是难过还是上学
xiàn zài mèi mèi chǎo jià
现在妹妹吵架
jiù zhǐ néng quàn zhe diǎn
只能
quàn zhe diǎn mèi
dàn shuō méi yǒu zī gé
没有资格
xī wàng chā shǒu mèi mèi de jiào yù
希望插手妹妹教育
yī bān zài jiā lǐ miàn ba
一般在家里面
nǚ shēng jǐ hū dōu shì hěn chǒng zhe de
女生几乎
bù guǎn shì nóng cūn hái shì chéng shì ba
不管农村还是城市
dōu shì bǐ jiào jiāo shēng guàn yǎng
比较娇生惯养
dàn shì duì yú lái shuō jiù shì
但是对于来说就是
shá shì dōu kào zì jǐ ba
啥事自己
zhī qián shì zài wǔ xiào dài zhe
之前武校
jiù hěn shǎo gēn jiā lǐ miàn jiē chù
很少里面接触
rán hòu jiù huí dào jiā lǐ miàn
然后回到里面
ràng chāi lā jī
垃圾
rán hòu jiù chāi
然后
rán hòu jiù shì suí de xìng zi
然后就是性子
rán hòu jiù chāi le bàn tiān méi chāi dòng
然后半天
jiù gēn chǎo qǐ lái
吵起来
shuō chāi dòng ràng chāi
 
rán hòu jiù zhí jiē zhe
然后直接
wǒ men běi fāng gāo liáng biān de nà zhǒng sǎo bǎ
我们北方高粱那种扫把
rán hòu jiù niǎn zhe
然后
jiù lí jiā chū zǒu
离家出走
hòu miàn jiù jiào huí jiā
后面回家
rán hòu jiù bǐ jiào xīn téng
然后比较心疼
jiù huí lái le
回来
zài dào hòu miàn jiù shì
后面就是
nián qù shì le
2018去世
jiù shì
就是
zhí jiē jiù shì nián guò nián
直接就是2019过年
jiā lǐ miàn de rén jiù shì nà zhǒng
里面就是那种
méi yǒu rén guǎn
没有
méi yǒu rén wèn
没有
jiù gǎn jué zhěng gè shì jiè dōu bù shì de
感觉整个世界不是
zhǐ yǒu zì jǐ
只有自己
jiù zhè zhǒng gǎn jué
这种感觉
jiù gǎn jué méi yǒu zhè gè jiā
感觉没有这个
jiù shì yī gè rén zài huó zhe
就是一个活着
yī gè rén zài wài miàn dài zhe
一个外面
le dōu méi rén zhī dào
知道
jiù zhè zhǒng
这种
dì yī cì jiàn bà bà de shí hòu
第一次爸爸时候
shì liù suì de shí hòu
六岁时候
jiù dāng shí
当时
qí shí cóng xiǎo shì shǔ yú xiāng yī wèi mìng de nà zhǒng
其实从小属于相依为命那种
dàn shì mǔ qīn dài yī gè rén
但是母亲一个
pò yú wú nài zhǐ néng chū qù dǎ gōng zhēng qián
迫于无奈只能出去打工挣钱
lái gōng dú shū
读书
dì yī cì guò lái
第一次过来
shì yī gè mò shēng rén de shēn fèn guò lái
一个陌生人身份过来
rán hòu dāng shí wèn mǎi shén me dōng xī
然后当时什么东西
zhè gè jì dé tè bié kě xiào
这个记得特别可笑
rán hòu shuō shì
然后 
rán hòu dāng shí dì yī cì tīng zhè huà
然后当时第一次
yǐ wèi zài
以为
rán hòu dāng shí jiù huí zuǐ
然后当时回嘴
shuō cái shì jiù zhè yàng
 这样
yīn wèi yī zhí zài tuō guǎn ma
因为一直托管
jiù shì tuō gěi bié rén jiā de
就是别人
rán hòu dāng tè bié gū dú de shí hòu
然后特别孤独时候
gǎn jué dào hǎo quē ài a
感觉
gǎn jué dào hǎo xiàng méi yǒu rén guān xīn
感觉好像没有关心
méi yǒu rén zài yì
没有在意
gǎn jué èr shí duō nián lái
感觉二十多年
cóng shàng xiǎo xué yī zhí dào gāo kǎo bì yè
小学一直高考毕业
jiā lǐ wán quán méi shén me jiè rù
家里完全没什么介入
jiù gǎn dào tè bié kě wàng jiā tíng
感到特别渴望家庭
yǒu shí hòu zài xiǎng rú guǒ yǐ hòu yǒu jiā tíng
有时候如果以后家庭
yǒu hái zi le
孩子
shuō zěn me dōu bù huì fàng qì
怎么不会放弃
wú lùn zài kùn nán dōu xiǎng chéng dān zhè gè zé rèn
无论困难承担这个责任
bāng zhè gè jiā tíng wéi hù de gèng hǎo
这个家庭维护更好
ài bù fáng huàn yī zhǒng fāng shì lái biǎo dá
不妨一种方式表达
I feel that I have no home.
I live alone,
stay away from my hometown alone.
No one knows even if I die.
That's it.
Have you ever been hurt by some of your parents' words and deeds?
I was rather playful
when I was in college.
Then my parents said that
you're going nowhere in this life.
You know nothing.
They look down on me and mock me.
When I was criticized by the teacher
for bad performance in school,
my dad said
"If I knew you were such a person,
I prefer not to give birth to you.
I might as well have another child."
He said it was really useless to give birth to you.
I remember that when I was in college,
I had high demands on myself.
But I did not get their approval
after making some achievements.
And then I thought that's fine,
I will live my life in a happy way.
I thought it strange
that I didn't get their praise
when I achieved the good results,
but when I didn't do these things,
they accused me instead.
When I was a little older, I told my mother about this,
and she said that
I was to spur you.
Oh my god!Why!
That's it.
My parents were called to school by the teacher once.
When they came back,
they beat me fiercely with domestic discipline.
I wore two thick pants on purpose
because I knew he was going to hit me.
As a result, my dad still ruthlessly told me
to take off my pants,
and then beat me severely.
My parents were very angry at the time.
They dropped my mobile phone,
dropped my computer and everything.
They say you will never be successful in your life.
In this life and the next,
no matter how long you will never get success.
If you go on like this,
you will definitely go to jail.
After they said this,
I felt that
they had denied everything about me.
I felt that I had nothing,
and they had given up on me.
Actually, I have experienced school violence.
After the teacher asked my parents to come to school,
their first reaction was not to protect me
but to accuse me.
And then talked to the teacher,
said why I caused trouble again
and so on.
But I was obviously the one being bullied.
I was short in the first year of junior high school.
Think about the feeling,
think about the feeling of being abandoned,
think about it.
It actually caused a lot of harm to me at the time.
At that time, my parents did not give me much help.
It was me to find someone
to beat up those who often bullied me.
And then no one bullied me.
Later, I also became decadent,
so it caused me not to study well now.
I have depression,
and they just say something
to make me feel like a burden to them.
They always said that
your medical bills are so expensive every month
and you have to go to the hospital for re-examination.
We won't support you when you at the age of 18.
When you reach 18,
you can go out and do whatever you want.
Wish you could get married sooner.
It's probably about my puppy love.
They said I was indecent.
I was in junior high school at that time.
I felt like I've been stabbed.
My heart is really hurt.
Really hurt.
I was on my way to school,
although I was sad, I still went to school.
Now when my mother and my little sister are quarreling,
I can only persuade my mother
while persuading my sister.
But my mother said I was unqualified to intervene.
She doesn't want me to interfere in my sister's education.
Girls always are doted on in most families.
No matter it is rural or urban,
girls are pampered normally.
But for me,
I have to rely on myself for everything.
I was in a martial arts school before,
and I rarely had contact with my family.
When I got home one day,
my dad asked me to dismantle the garbage.
And then I went to dismantle.
My personality is very similar to my dad.
I couldn't solve it after a long time working,
so I quarreled with my dad.
I said even you couldn't handle it, how could you ask me to do that?
Then my dad directly took the broom
made of our northern sorghum
to chase me and beat me.
So I ran away from home.
Later, my mother asked me to go home.
I felt sorry for my mother,
so I came back.
After that,
my mother passed away in 2018.
then,
During the Chinese New Year in 2019,
my families are the kind of...
No one cares about me
and no one contacts with me.
I feel that the whole world does not belong to me.
I can only rely on myself.
That was how I felt.
I feel that I have no home.
I live alone,
stay away from my hometown alone.
No one knows even if I die.
That's it.
The first time I saw my dad was
when I was six years old.
at that time
Since I was young, my mother and I have been dependent on each other.
My mother raised me by herself.
She had no choice but to go out to work
to earn money for me to study.
My dad came to me for the first time
as a stranger,
then I asked him what to buy.
I remember this is particularly ridiculous.
He said I'm your dad.
This is the first time I heard this sentence,
I thought he was humiliating me.
Then I replied that
I was your dad. That's it.
Because I've been staying in a host family,
I was taken care of by someone else.
When I was lonely,
I felt that I was so desiring to be loved.
I felt like no one cares about me.
No one.
I feel that for more than 20 years,
from elementary school to high school graduation,
my family has no involvement in my growth at all.
I feel that I am very longing for family.
Sometimes, I think that if I have a family
with children in the future,
I will never give up on them.
No matter how difficult life is, I would take this responsibility
to make this family be better.
Love could be expressed in a different way.
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Toxic Things Parents Did to You

  • posted on 2021-05-17
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  • 大树君TreeMan

jiù gǎn jué méi yǒu zhè gè jiā

感觉没有这个

jiù shì yī gè rén zài huó zhe

就是一个活着

yī gè rén zài wài miàn dài zhe

一个外面

le dōu méi rén zhī dào

知道

jiù zhè zhǒng

这种

shì fǒu céng yīn fù mǔ de mǒu xiē yán xíng ér shòu dào shāng hài

是否父母某些言行受到伤害

dà gài jiù shì shàng dà xué de shí hòu

大概就是大学时候

bǐ jiào tān wán

比较贪玩

rán hòu fù mǔ jiù shuō

然后父母

zhè bèi zi méi shén me chū xī le

这辈子没什么出息

shén me dōu bù huì

什么不会

rán hòu kàn bù qǐ cháo fěng

然后看不起 嘲讽

zài xué xiào lǐ miàn yīn wèi biǎo xiàn bù hǎo

学校里面因为表现不好

bèi lǎo shī pī píng

老师批评

rán hòu bà bà shuō

然后爸爸

zǎo zhī dào shì zhè yàng de yī gè rén

知道这样一个

hái bù rú bù yào shēng xià zhè gè ér zi

不如不要这个儿子

hái bù rú zài shēng yī gè zài yǎng yī gè

不如再生一个 一个

shuō shēng le zhēn de shì tǐng méi yòng de

 真的没用

jì dé zài dà xué de shí hòu

记得大学时候

jiù zì jǐ duì zì jǐ de yào qiú hái shì tǐng gāo de

自己自己要求还是

dàn shì ne zuò chū yī xiē chéng jī yǐ hòu

但是 做出一些成绩以后

méi yǒu dé dào tā men de rèn kě

没有得到他们认可

rán hòu jiù jué dé

然后觉得

jiù zhè yàng ba

这样

jiù àn zhào kuài huó de nà zhǒng fāng shì qù guò

按照快活那种方式去过

jué dé hěn qí guài

觉得奇怪

zhī qián qǔ dé le xiāng yīng de chéng jī de shí hòu

之前取得相应成绩时候

méi yǒu dé dào tā men de rèn kě

没有得到他们认可

dàn méi yǒu zuò zhè xiē shì qíng de shí hòu

没有这些事情时候

fǎn ér chū lái zhǐ zé

反而出来指责

hòu lái yī diǎn jiù gēn shuō dào zhè gè shì

后来一点这个

jiù shuō de shì

shì wèi le biān cè a

为了鞭策

wèi shén me

oh my god为什么

jiù shì zhè yàng

就是这样

bèi lǎo shī qǐng le jiā zhǎng

老师家长

rán hòu fù mǔ huí qù yǐ hòu

然后父母回去以后

jiù hěn hěn de yòng de jiā lǐ de yī xiē jiā fǎ chōu le

狠狠家里一些家法

gù yì chuān le liǎng tiáo hòu kù zi

故意穿两条裤子

yīn wèi zhī dào yào

因为知道

jié guǒ hái shì hěn wú qíng de

结果还是无情

ràng kù zi tuō diào

裤子脱掉

rán hòu hǎo hǎo de chōu le yī dùn

然后好好一顿

fù mǔ dāng shí hěn ma

父母当时

shǒu jī shuāi le

手机

diàn nǎo shén me de dōu shuāi le

电脑什么

shuō zhè yī bèi zi dōu bù huì chéng cái

一辈子不会成才

zhè yī bèi zi xià yī bèi zi

一辈子 一辈子

wú lùn duō jiǔ duō jiǔ duō jiǔ dōu bù huì chéng cái

无论多久多久多久不会成才

zhè yàng zi xià qù

样子下去

kěn dìng huì zuò láo

肯定坐牢

dāng shí shuō zhè huà

当时

gǎn jué duì lái shuō de huà

感觉来说的话

gǎn jué hǎo xiàng fǒu dìng le de yī qiè

感觉好像否定一切

gǎn jué jiù yī wú suǒ yǒu

感觉一无所有

gǎn jué jiù xiàng tā men fàng qì le zhè gè rén yī yàng

感觉他们放弃这个一样

qí shí jīng lì guò xiào yuán bào lì

其实经历校园暴力

jiào le jiā zhǎng yǐ hòu ba

家长以后

tā men dì yī shí jiān bù shì bǎo hù

他们第一时间不是保护

tā men shì xiān zhǐ zé le yī dùn

他们指责一顿

rán hòu zài gēn lǎo shī shuō huà de

然后老师说话

shuō zěn me yòu rě shì le

怎么惹事

zěn me zěn me yàng de

怎么怎么样

dāng shí bèi qī fù le

当时欺负

dāng shí shàng chū yī nà me xiǎo de gè tóu

当时初一 那么个头

xiǎng xiǎng nà zhǒng gǎn jué

想想那种感觉

xiǎng xiǎng nà zhǒng bèi pāo qì de gǎn jué

想想那种抛弃感觉

xiǎng xiǎng

想想

qí shí duì dāng shí zào chéng de shāng hài tǐng de

其实当时造成伤害

dāng shí fù mǔ méi yǒu gěi shén me tài de bāng zhù

当时父母没有什么帮助

shì zì jǐ zhǎo rén

自己

jīng cháng qī fù de nà xiē rén gěi le yī dùn

经常欺负那些一顿

rán hòu cái hǎo de

然后

hòu lái kāi shǐ hùn le

后来开始

suǒ yǐ shuō zào chéng xiàn zài xué xí bù hǎo

所以造成现在学习不好

běn rén jiù shì yǒu yì yù zhèng de

本人就是抑郁症

tā men jiù shì huì shuō yī xiē huà

他们就是一些

ràng jué dé zì jǐ jiù shì tā men de yī gè lèi zhuì

觉得自己就是他们一个累赘

shuō kàn měi gè yuè zhì bìng

 每个治病

de yī yào fèi dōu nà me guì

医药费那么

hái yào yī yuàn fù chá

还要医院复查

shí bā suì jiù bù guǎn le

十八岁不管

děng mǎn shí bā suì

十八岁

zì jǐ chū qù xiǎng zěn me yàng jiù zěn me yàng

自己出去怎么样怎么样

zǎo diǎn jià chū qù suàn le

早点嫁出去算了

dà gài jiù shì

大概就是

jiù zǎo liàn ma

早恋

jiù shuō jiǎn diǎn

检点

dāng shí hái shì chū zhōng duì

当时还是初中 

jiù gǎn jué zì jǐ bèi tǒng le yī dāo

感觉自己一刀

zhēn de xīn hěn tòng

真的 

zhēn de hěn tòng

真的

dāng shí shì zài shàng xué de guò chéng zhōng

当时上学过程

jiù shì hěn nán guò dàn hái shì shàng xué le

就是难过还是上学

xiàn zài mèi mèi chǎo jià

现在妹妹吵架

jiù zhǐ néng quàn zhe diǎn

只能

quàn zhe diǎn mèi

dàn shuō méi yǒu zī gé

没有资格

xī wàng chā shǒu mèi mèi de jiào yù

希望插手妹妹教育

yī bān zài jiā lǐ miàn ba

一般在家里面

nǚ shēng jǐ hū dōu shì hěn chǒng zhe de

女生几乎

bù guǎn shì nóng cūn hái shì chéng shì ba

不管农村还是城市

dōu shì bǐ jiào jiāo shēng guàn yǎng

比较娇生惯养

dàn shì duì yú lái shuō jiù shì

但是对于来说就是

shá shì dōu kào zì jǐ ba

啥事自己

zhī qián shì zài wǔ xiào dài zhe

之前武校

jiù hěn shǎo gēn jiā lǐ miàn jiē chù

很少里面接触

rán hòu jiù huí dào jiā lǐ miàn

然后回到里面

ràng chāi lā jī

垃圾

rán hòu jiù chāi

然后

rán hòu jiù shì suí de xìng zi

然后就是性子

rán hòu jiù chāi le bàn tiān méi chāi dòng

然后半天

jiù gēn chǎo qǐ lái

吵起来

shuō chāi dòng ràng chāi

 

rán hòu jiù zhí jiē zhe

然后直接

wǒ men běi fāng gāo liáng biān de nà zhǒng sǎo bǎ

我们北方高粱那种扫把

rán hòu jiù niǎn zhe

然后

jiù lí jiā chū zǒu

离家出走

hòu miàn jiù jiào huí jiā

后面回家

rán hòu jiù bǐ jiào xīn téng

然后比较心疼

jiù huí lái le

回来

zài dào hòu miàn jiù shì

后面就是

nián qù shì le

2018去世

jiù shì

就是

zhí jiē jiù shì nián guò nián

直接就是2019过年

jiā lǐ miàn de rén jiù shì nà zhǒng

里面就是那种

méi yǒu rén guǎn

没有

méi yǒu rén wèn

没有

jiù gǎn jué zhěng gè shì jiè dōu bù shì de

感觉整个世界不是

zhǐ yǒu zì jǐ

只有自己

jiù zhè zhǒng gǎn jué

这种感觉

jiù gǎn jué méi yǒu zhè gè jiā

感觉没有这个

jiù shì yī gè rén zài huó zhe

就是一个活着

yī gè rén zài wài miàn dài zhe

一个外面

le dōu méi rén zhī dào

知道

jiù zhè zhǒng

这种

dì yī cì jiàn bà bà de shí hòu

第一次爸爸时候

shì liù suì de shí hòu

六岁时候

jiù dāng shí

当时

qí shí cóng xiǎo shì shǔ yú xiāng yī wèi mìng de nà zhǒng

其实从小属于相依为命那种

dàn shì mǔ qīn dài yī gè rén

但是母亲一个

pò yú wú nài zhǐ néng chū qù dǎ gōng zhēng qián

迫于无奈只能出去打工挣钱

lái gōng dú shū

读书

dì yī cì guò lái

第一次过来

shì yī gè mò shēng rén de shēn fèn guò lái

一个陌生人身份过来

rán hòu dāng shí wèn mǎi shén me dōng xī

然后当时什么东西

zhè gè jì dé tè bié kě xiào

这个记得特别可笑

rán hòu shuō shì

然后 

rán hòu dāng shí dì yī cì tīng zhè huà

然后当时第一次

yǐ wèi zài

以为

rán hòu dāng shí jiù huí zuǐ

然后当时回嘴

shuō cái shì jiù zhè yàng

 这样

yīn wèi yī zhí zài tuō guǎn ma

因为一直托管

jiù shì tuō gěi bié rén jiā de

就是别人

rán hòu dāng tè bié gū dú de shí hòu

然后特别孤独时候

gǎn jué dào hǎo quē ài a

感觉

gǎn jué dào hǎo xiàng méi yǒu rén guān xīn

感觉好像没有关心

méi yǒu rén zài yì

没有在意

gǎn jué èr shí duō nián lái

感觉二十多年

cóng shàng xiǎo xué yī zhí dào gāo kǎo bì yè

小学一直高考毕业

jiā lǐ wán quán méi shén me jiè rù

家里完全没什么介入

jiù gǎn dào tè bié kě wàng jiā tíng

感到特别渴望家庭

yǒu shí hòu zài xiǎng rú guǒ yǐ hòu yǒu jiā tíng

有时候如果以后家庭

yǒu hái zi le

孩子

shuō zěn me dōu bù huì fàng qì

怎么不会放弃

wú lùn zài kùn nán dōu xiǎng chéng dān zhè gè zé rèn

无论困难承担这个责任

bāng zhè gè jiā tíng wéi hù de gèng hǎo

这个家庭维护更好

ài bù fáng huàn yī zhǒng fāng shì lái biǎo dá

不妨一种方式表达

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